Well you might wanna call me like that now. Why? You'll see at the end of this post.
So recently I joined up with a local blogging community called Blogger Energy that I thought was fun enough. I was so happy when the founder finally accepted me as one of the members and at that moment, I introduced myself using half Bahasa half English. I told them I'm not used to speak in Bahasa when writing on my blog nor in the Facebook group. At least, not that often except on short chats like on Twitter. Everytime we have discussion on Sunday, I always end up being a silent reader since I don't want to look like an "attention driver" if I comment on a topic using English. There's this feeling where I feel more comfortable when I write everything in English cuz I find modesty in it and, because I have more cool English vocabularies than Bahasa ones. But people would end up underestimating me and ignore me afterwards. I can understand that not every people get to know what I talk and I have to pay respect to those who slowly get my words. But what I've felt for several days being a "stranger" in this community just doesn't make sense.
Another matter, in BE, we have rules; if you want to promote your new blog post, you have to do blogwalking afterwards to the rest of the members who also promote their posts. I always, I repeat, always do blogwalking after I put my latest post there. I even have tried to comment each of them using Bahasa eventhough it's really nothing—I mean, my grammar must be wrong at some points but that's okay. I felt like there were 5 or 8 blogs I visited but the ones that came back to me were only 1 or 2. I don't know, is it because my blog posts are written in English or is it because they have no respect to me?
Today when I just reached home after getting back from school and checked out BE's Facebook wall, I read another comment from other member that was directed to me, saying I shouldn't do live link when I leave comments on his blog. He said it would make his blog's rank decreasing in Google SE. Dude, at least I commented and talked no shits about your blog post. Why can't you just say 'thank you' or 'visit me back' or even 'hey Nava, your blog is amazing as well!', like that?! I got really pissed.
I'm sure as hell his passion in blogging is nothing. Well, at least compared to mine. He can't respect how other would comment on his blog. And he didn't even pay me back a visit. He only care about his blog's page rank on Google, which is also depend on the visitors, which in other words, including ME as well. Oh is this how Indonesian people really are? Please, I didn't even understand what you talked back then but I kept on commenting cuz I thought you'd interested to hear my thoughts.
See? I told you, you'd end up calling me "girl with no manners" ;)