January 28, 2015

Girls in the city 7

It all started right when Fidel told me she was craving for karÄ“ (curry). We both have our own favorite restaurant for karÄ“, and right at that moment we decided to go to Grand Indonesia just for the sake of fulfilling our cravings. Since it's she and I again, the "jalan-jalan" will be another episode of Girls In The City. It's our seventh episode and we're so delighted to tag along someone as well! It's Tiara. She's been wanting to come along with us since the first episode but because of her tight schedule, most of the time she couldn't come with us. This time though, we planned everything out and we made sure Tiara could go. The first intention was actually going to Planetarium, since it's been years since our last visit to this place and we would like to rewind our rusty childhood memories. Planetarium is a great place to visit when you need some refreshing to see stars at nights and probably take some time off from the hectic city life and enjoy your time. Not to mention that the entrance ticket is much cheaper than I last remembered, hmn...

We of course took the chance to roam around the mall because we were waiting for the show time at Planetarium which started at 5.30 pm on week days. So because we were in the hippest mall in Jakarta right at that moment, we looked around to snap some more photos. Honestly I rarely go the mall unless I want to buy some new clothes. I'd rather spend my money on food street vendor or little cafes instead to get my favorite coffee or bubble tea. Malls aren't really my hang out place. ALSO, you have to see how I held back the pain of walking on heeled boots for eight fucking hours going from one place to the other and even chasing the train. I abused my feet too much :(

Pretend you don't see this one...

After fooling around until it was almost the show time, we went straight to our next destination: Planetarium, which you can always google that place on Gmaps. It wasn't too far from Grand Indonesia but since we were quite blind with directions, we took a taxi to get there. Planetarium on week days was so quiet and unpacked. It's as if we were the only one attending the show yesterday! I wonder if people still go to this place for a quick entertainment with their family.

Mandatory selfie inside the studio before the show started.

After the show, we walked around Taman Ismail Marzuki to snap more photos because Tiara said we didn't take enough photos that day. As I told you before, it's been years since I last visited TIM and Planetarium. So you can imagine how surprised I was to discover such building did exist here. It was so Instagram-able, as how Mancah would describe, and beautiful as well. Jakarta in the evening was quite enjoyable. You can find many young kids and teenagers playing sports like soccer or skate-boarding. Such pleasant view~

We. Are. Happy. Kids.

I look like a lioness with that hair orz

Okay so fortunately there was an art exhibition held at Taman Ismail Marzuki as well and as usual, we couldn't miss this one because it was one held by UNJ (Jakarta State University). The exhibition was mind-blowing. Just like this one. You see this piece of art from afar and you'll catch a picture of a mother holding her baby. But if you look closely, you can see that the picture is made from a group of nails being put together creating the picture. Wicked, isn't it?

And of course, my outfit of the day.

H&M long shirt (or coat?), Nevada plaid pants, Lacoste sling bag, IconNinety9 shoes

This place is totally good for taking your ootd photos, honestly saying. You just have to tag along someone with good photography skill who knows well about angles and all. You're gonna love the ambience here, trust me. And so I guess that'll be the end of today's post. I'm so excited because I scored seven posts this January! I usually just leave one or four posts a month because of the hectic college life. So happy because I got to update the blog during my holiday :D 'Till then, have a nice day! xx

January 19, 2015

Home is where your heart is

So this is it, the biggest reason why I told my mother I wanted to go home this holiday, because I had promised to Jakuen that I'd come to their reunion. Surprise boy, I myself don't even know I can go this far just for my friends. Being one of the "anak rantau" in my batch is not an easy thing to deal with. We're talking about different schedules and timing. Since now we're college students already and most of us don't go to the same campus anymore. Except for me and Yudha because we both attend the same major and same university. I guess that's a blessing. At least I still have a pinch of Jakuen when I'm in Jogja! :) And as always, I came late because I was supposed to wash my car first but the car wash opened on 9 AM, the same moment when the reunion started. So I came to school around 12 PM, ha! Way too late, eh? ;p I quickly spotted my favorite juniors and glad that I could see them again yesterday. It's been six months since I left the city and I've been missing them like hell...

It was quite packed, but we didn't go full team, sadly. Some members couldn't make it there and we had to go through without them :( Hopefully next time everyone -like, totally every single one- can make it so for the first time in forever Jakuen can go totally full team :)

This is Ilyas and Fandi, my most favorite juniors of all. Not that I apply favoritism or anything but I can safely say that they're the ones that I totally miss from Jakuen. I couldn't stop pinching their cheeks all day yesterday, haha. They have grown up so much and I'm so surprised to hear that Ilyas has a girlfriend already and look at his upper arm lmao, has he been working out when I left for Jogja six months ago??? He looks so toned now and I'm happy because I hope that's a good sign because he's not so worked up on his school or anything. Meanwhile Fandi also surprises me with his story of losing weights... He looks skinnier than I last remember and I told him to eat a lot.

Uuuu, lovely babes :*

January 16, 2015

Elastic heart

Forever21 shirt, Nevada jeans, unbranded shoes

So I just got arrived in Jakarta last Tuesday evening with sore body because of the train lag. I'm gonna stay here until February as my holiday ends on February 16th. I guess I'm still not used with long hours travelling, sigh. Well, I guess when you have to remain seated and not knowing what to do except sleeping for eight hours, you'll get that feeling. Anyway, since taking my camera with me all the time is really tiring and not to mention it attracts too many attention sometimes taking photos on public malls, snapping your ootd seems a whole lot easier with phones. But of course, my phone's camera quality is still far from that. So I managed to borrow Drian's new phone and got its camera tested when we were out to have lunch.

January 14, 2015

What to watch: The Book of Life

I first knew this movie from Oscar. We were talking about what movies we just finished watching and he told me about The Book of Life. I saw the title the other day and I thought the movie was about a cliche young cheesy love… totally out of my league. But just yesterday when I was browsing through IMDb, turned out The Book of Life is an animation movie. And God knows I looovveee animation so much!

The story plot is beautifully packed. A love triangle between Manolo, Joaquin, and Maria. Manolo with his love for music, and Joaquin with his everlasting life medal which makes him unbeatable and works his way to be the best soldier in city of San Angel, both of them are fighting over Maria’s heart.

This is actually none other than the wager between ruler of the Land of The Remembered, La Muerte (the lady in the picture below) and ruler of Land of The Forgotten, Xibalba (the dark creature on the right). They place a bet on who’s gonna marry Maria in the end and if Xibalba wins, they will switch place. But if La Muerte wins, Xibalba should never lay a hand on mortal’s business.

She's totally my favorite character in the movie!

It’s a movie worth the watch. I can totally relate to the story. Because I’ve been in that position. In fact, I’m currently in that position, more less. But just like the story, my choice downs to the boy with the guitar. Plus, the songs in this movie are beautiful! I personally like I Love You Too Much performed by Diego Luna and No Matter Where You Are by Us The Duo c: If you have free time, don’t forget to watch this and tell me what do you think!

This worth 8.5 out of 10.

January 12, 2015

The monster within

Remember that time when I told you I had a problem with my personality that my parents had to send me out to a rehabilitation center for teenagers? It's not a new thing. I went into a fight with my classmate back then on my second year in senior high and it didn't end up good. All my friends were worried about my condition because I snapped at them all the time. I was angry for no reason and my behavior was similar like a woman on period. Even worse than that. I hated that I couldn't even figure out the reason why I acted like that. I tried to talk to my psychiatrist but it didn't help me much. I kept going back and forth with my mood and things got worse, I isolated myself from my family. I always knew that I'm no good in handling my emotion and the fact that I'm sensitive makes it even worse. I develop many new behaviors and most of the time, they're pretty destructive. One time I can feel like I'm up in the clouds, the next second I'll be covering myself under my blanket and lock myself for days, ignoring the world.

Even though I have friends to talk to, somehow I have trust issue that I makes me being secretive about who I really am and what disease lies within me. I always keep everything to myself. Which many say that it's not really good because telling my stories and problems will always reduce the burden. But I wish it were that easy. It was never that easy. Talking it out won't sort things out. At least, that's how I see it. Writing has been my only getaway because somehow I don't need advice, I just need someone to listen to me. So writing often comes in handy because I can pour out all my feelings without having to hear numerous useless advice about what I should and shouldn't do.

I was close to develop dual personality, my psychiatrist told me. And it would be harder to handle if I really did. I've heard about these people who change their behavior periodically and often address themselves as someone else when in fact they're still the same person. It's creepy, because how can two 'souls' live in one body and each soul has their own mind. Who controls who? Even until now I still have troubles controlling myself not to get out of my limit. I'm afraid that my friends can't accept me for who I am, with all my flaws and mistakes. Sometimes I question my real character when I'm around my friends. It's really confusing.

January 10, 2015


H&M long shirt worn as outerwear, unbranded black bandeau dress, Airwalk shoes

Hi! I can safely say that the final exam is finally over, chyeeaaahh to the yeaaahhh! But I'm still mourning over my bad score because I admit it, I didn't do my best all over again. I didn't study hard and underestimate everything, ugh. My time management is really suck. When I'm supposed to study, I hang out with my friends instead and when I come home, I'm too tired to open the book and start studying. I don't know why I'm losing the spirit I once had before I got into the university. I was thrilled to take all the tests and didn't even complain about it. Now after I ~get~ into the major I've always wanted, I lose all my passion all of a sudden. I was thinking about changing my major and take another test this year along with the other final year high school student, but that would be too risky because I'm totally not in the mood to study about high school lessons anymore. They're so yesterday and I'm sure I can't remember anything about math again especially because in faculty of law we don't study math at all, ha!

I got this new flannel shirt (or coat...) from my mom when the rest of my family paid a visit to celebrate new year. The material is so thick I concerned about the heat in Jogja when I first saw this. And it was a bit itchy so I decided to wear it as an outerwear instead. All in all, it looks just fine, don't you think? But I still don't think this can be worn when the weather is cold because the sleeve is revealing too much skin so I don't know if this can be considered as an outerwear... Yeah.

I just realized I was talking about my confusion towards the clothes I'm wearing. Yep.

January 05, 2015

Seven confessions

Forever21 denim shirt, Nevada trousers, Elizabeth shoes

Confessions about family
I guess anyone can see it straight from the beginning that I'm not a family-oriented type of girl. Yes, I don't get along with any of my family members, even either mom or dad. Still, I have a soft spot for my older brother somehow. Funny because we used to fight and scratch each other's face. But as we grew up together, I learned that he's not forever annoying, y'know. Especially when I had to practically save him from the troubles he brought himself into, I feel like I need to protect him. But it's the completely the other way around with my younger brother. My psychiatrist once told me that I had grown jealous upon my parents' treatment towards him because I was the youngest child in the family before he was born. Thus I probably developed negative relationship with him. I'm trying to fix myself tho. It's not healthy, I'm aware.

Confessions about love
I have been single since I was born. I'm telling you guys the truth. I have never tied down into a relationship before. Well, an official one. The last thing I had was 'unlabeled'. A relationship where you care for each other but you're not officially a couple. I'm not one who can handle being in love without having the rest of the world knowing about it LMAO. There's this bad habit where I can't secretly fall in love (except for that one person) (where I held myself so hard because he was literally my best friend and I fell too hard for him and if he knew I had a thing for him, I was worried he would avoid me). I guess my brain interprets the action as a form of making barrier around my crush. Also, I fall in love so easy, even in the most unexpected time and with the most unexpected person. My last relationship only took four hours for me to fall for him. You can laugh at that.

Confessions about abilities
I'm pretty much the jack of all trades... Though there are few fields that I guess I do it better than other fields. Like writing and drawing, for example. I've been keeping diaries ever since I was eight, and my parents realized I had a thing in choosing words when school gave me a paper in which I had to write about about my holiday. Ever since then, they always encourage me to practice my writing, even hoping that someday I will have my own book. I guess it's becoming something more than just a hobby. It helps me to clear out my mind.

I also develop a decent skill in drawing because mom put me in a drawing course along with my best friend since I was still at young age. Time flies and I fell in love with Japanese drawing style; manga. I learned all the basics by myself and made some comics (they're still crappy as fuck), and developed my own drawing style. Then I started creating my very own original characters, it was so much fun! Though I have stopped drawing (and I guess my skill is getting rusty... sigh), I can say that I'm not that rigid to make something artsy.

Confessions about food
I eat all kinds of foods. And I love spicy foods most of all. I love putting lots of chili into my food because they taste much much better. I dislike vegetables, but I still eat them anyway because there's no other option not to. I mean, it's healthy, and it prevents cancer and other serious disease, so why not? Though they taste weird sometimes, but I do eat everything served on the table. I'm allergic to prawns and I don't eat corns. They taste the weirdest of all, yuck! :x

Confessions about money
I'm no good in managing money. And I just happened to discover that when I started living far from my parents. Most of my money goes out to foods. Yeah, I'd rather spend them all in food than clothing just because. Happy tummy makes me feel better about life, teehee. My friends see me as a spoiled daughter. And I guess I am. I mean, being the only daughter in the family gives me the opportunity to have more stuffs because I can't borrow anything from my brothers, right? ;) I also get a lot of things like clothes and accessories inherited from my mother. Money goes around me all the time because I use that excuse, LOL.

Confessions about lies
I lie a lot. I even lie to my best friend and parents and everyone. I create stories just so people will look at me differently. But I have never been caught by anyone. I'm trying to stop being a liar tho haha. It's an old habit I'm hard to stop.

Confessions about blog
If I hadn't deleted my very first blog and read the entire post written there, I would have fallen from my chair right now because they were all so messed up. I don't really pay attention the birthday of lucidreams, but now that it's entering its third year, I keep remembering my first blog. I really wanna laugh at my stupidity and all. Oh I wish I really hadn't deleted that piece of shit. I'd like to reminisce some moments!

It's my go-to-college outfit today. I just bought the denim shirt and it was quite pricey but since I rarely buy something over-the-price since I started living with my parents, I think investing money on this shirt doesn't really matter. I love splurging on things I love anyway. And I've been wanting to have a denim shirt since a long time ago. I thought my mom would despise it because she's very demanding when it comes to my outfits. But when I told her I just bought a denim shirt and sent her a photo of it, she seemed so delighted with my choice. And have I told you I lost some weight? Dancing helped me getting rid of those fatty fatty and I feel happier now because I can tone down my size a bit ;D I'll be going back home to Jakarta after final exams, probably this Saturday and I really can't wait to reunite with my high school friends! ^_^

Happy Monday! xx