March 30, 2015

Sola dosis facit venenum

H&M little black dress, unbranded shirt, ICONinety9 wedges

"All things are poison and nothing is without poison; only the dose makes a thing not a poison."

My worst behavior has always been this one; jealousy. I'm a very possessive girl. Not just to my love interest, but to my close friends as well. I always feel haunted by the fear of losing my close people. Sure, people come and go. But I'm not one who takes separation well. Thus I get jealous and possessive easily because I'm afraid they will leave me. Maybe this is why I didn't have many friends back when I was still in elementary school. Not only because I was too focused on my education, but also because I was too afraid that if I got attached to one friend, I would have to face the paranoia of losing them as well. Told you I don't take separation well. I personally think jealousy itself is okay. Nothing is wrong with being jealous over your loved ones. But just like the title of this post, the dose makes the poison. Which means, too much jealousy will consume your soul. And that's probably why people don't want to get close to me. Because all that's left in me is the leftover of what my jealousy hasn't consumed.

Anyway, this is the outfit that I wore to watch the orchestra last Saturday night. My friend told me to 'dress up' since it was a formal event. Though I didn't remember seeing lots of women there wearing formal dresses. The sheer top doesn't belong to me. Yes, it belongs to my friend. I was whining at her when I told her I didn't have any dress and didn't know what to wear to such event because I had never been to an orchestra before. I guess I took the 'dress up' too much. What do you think? Is it too much for a simple orchestra?

March 29, 2015

Kisah Kinasih

Right after the theater had ended, I still had one more thing to do on my schedule. If you're a follower of me on Instagram, then you must be aware of what I did on Saturday night. Yes, watching an orchestra it is. It was my first time watching an orchestra, live, because back in my home town, it was hard to find a "real" orchestra. I don't even think there's even a proper one. But since my college actually has its own choir, it gives me the chance to know how it is to see a live performance of orchestra. I'd like to say thank you to Eri because my interest towards classic music has grown much better since we got along together. I often watch his videos performing with his choir team back when he was in New York for a choir competition. The orchestra itself was held at Taman Budaya Yogyakarta.

Obligatory selfie inside the hall

Though I must say that the first two arrangements were quite awful and disappointing, in my opinion. But when it got into the third arrangement, until the end of the first session, everything sounded better and the play started getting smoother. I personally love the trio guitarists. Very fun to watch. Very cute and handsome as well. LMAO. Too bad that I didn't get to record them :(

After a twenty minutes break, the second session began. The main performance, a special arrangement of Sakitnya Tuh Di Sini (yes, that popular song by Cita Citata HAHAHAHAH), and it was hella amazing and good! It was more like a medley, the main song was mixed with classic songs and it turned out to be so good, I couldn't stop smiling and chuckling when they played! :D I have the video in my camera, maybe I'll upload it and let you guys know. Because it's really good and fun to hear.

I got more interested in orchestra. I wish I could at least play any music instrument. I'm totally loving GMCO's violin play. I can't wait for their recital and grand concert this year!


Wow! Finally, the sleepless nights for the last one week are finally OVER! I am so glad that it's over already. Not that I hate the process, but really, I have a very weak metabolism and I get sick easily. The last one week was such a tough one because I didn't get to sleep in my own guest house because I always came home after curfew and the gates would have been locked by then. So I had to stay at my friend's guest house instead and went to classes straight from there. It was such a tiring routines but it wasn't like I had any other option. This is my second time playing and acting on the stage again after my first ever play on September 2014. I won't say that I'm addicted with theater, because if you ask me, I still can't overcome that 'stage fever' problem. Even though many said that I did really good in this play, I'm still not confident enough to actually play for another one in the future, haha. I'm gonna bomb this post with a lot of photos, so don't tell me I didn't warn you.

I would like to thank everyone—the actors, the director, the assistant directors, the staffs, and make-up artists. You guys totally rock the play! It wouldn't be the same without your hard work. And I know that even though there are so many things that still needed to be fixed here, make sure we have a room for improvement. I totally enjoy the process practicing with the actors. With my friends. I gain new knowledge and I had so much fun. I didn't regret anything. And I hope we can continue playing on the same stage. Maybe one day later, when all of us have become the professionals?

Have a nice Sunday! xx

March 27, 2015

Fifty shades of Dyn

Let's not dwell over the title of this post.

Everyone who knows me in real life knows well that I don't like wearing make-up. Even being a 19 years old teenage girl, I don't know which lipstick shade suits me best, what I have to do with my brows, or how to make shading on my cheeks. Being the only daughter in the family, I spend most of the days playing with my two brothers with their game and activities. That's probably why I have zero knowledge about make-up. And when I told you I never wear make-up, I'm telling the truth. I always think that make-up leaves acne on my face. And I feel weird with my make-up on. But ever since I started playing for my college's theater, getting my face touched up with heavy make-up becomes my regular thing. I'm still amazed with how make-up affects our look. Just like this one. I posted this photo on my LINE and everyone who didn't know it was all done for the sake of theater play said that I look so much older. But that's the point! The make-up is aimed to make me look older because in the script I'm a 31 years old woman. It does feel weird at first. But I managed to maintain the make-up until the end of the rehearsal yesterday. Usually they're gone five minutes after being applied :p

PS: Sorry for the low quality of the selfie tho. They're taken using iPhone.


Faculty of Law University of Gadjah Mada
07.00 PM

Free entrance!

March 18, 2015

All is well

Unbranded black dress, LUI leather jacket, Mango belt, ICONinety9 ankle boots

Bruised knees, feeling exhausted both physically and mentally, late night thoughts before sleep, morning classes—those stuffs actually explain how my life has been lately. And as much as I enjoy all the activities, I still long for something new. Something out of the ordinary to happen. Something that goes out of my comfort zone. You know, whenever I have a dance practice with my friends, I always think why wasn't I born with a talent in music. I mean, my ex-love interest has a huge passion in music and wouldn't it be better for me to be more developed in music as well? I remember I used to play piano when I was still a little kid. But I realized music wasn't really my biggest passion at that time. I was more into fine arts and dancing. Now that I look at my ex-love interest, I wonder; if I could play any instrument as good as him, or sing as good as the girls that surround him, would he reconsider breaking me up? LOL. I shouldn't really think about it this way. I don't think it matters anyway. But maybe, just maybe, he would at least fight for me because he knew we had something in common that could be shared.

Love's weird. It makes you think about weird stuffs like this.

Sorry if I don't write much on this post. I don't actually feel like writing long post today. No new story to be told aside from my usual rambling about my college activities. This outfit was taken weeks ago and I just had the chance to post it today because of the tight schedule. I was just experimenting on the black dress which, if you pay close attention, is a long black skirt. I hope this post will cover the rest of this month's post because I don't think I'll be able to post outfit posts in the near future. But that's just maybe. I gotta run now though, theater practice in a few hours so I gotta prepare myself for it. Cheerio! x