September 23, 2016


It's post-raining outside. And I don't know why I'm feeling so blue right now.

I thought I was doing what I could to make you be a better person.

I can't remember the last time we spent time together just by the two of us. It's been awhile, you said. But today I didn't see that spark in your eyes. Something just seemed... off. Why, you ask. I just know. I don't know why I'm writing this publicly on my blog when most of the time I just keep it to myself.

But I need someone to talk to, and this blog is the only one that will never judge me, scream at me, or tell me what I should do. It just listens to me.

I can take care of my own things

You barely sleep at least not until it's five in the morning


You're a man, don't be like this

Yeah so that's why I told you I can take care of my own

How can you say that so easily? I don't even know what to say. Yet you persistently urge me to say something. Why is this getting harder for me? I thought I was doing the right thing. I thought we were getting better.

I miss you, I said last night. And so did you.

But look at us now.

It's post-raining outside.

And my feelings are left sitting on the stone under the rain, cold and neglected.

September 20, 2016

Vredeburg Fort

Two weeks ago I finally went to Vredeburg Fort Museum with my boyfriend! Even when I've lived for more than two years already, but it was my first time visiting the museum. I asked him numerous time already but we couldn't find the right time to go there because of uni stuffs. Since we were still in the hype of celebrating our first anniversary, boyfriend took me there as a 'small' present for us. Here's the good thing about being a student in Jogja; you will never run out of new dating destination because there's always a new place to discover together. And you don't even have to worry about the travel expense because everything is cheap here (except for the illegal parking man around the area geez). Okay so no more chit chats! Here are some pictures we took that day! Enjoy~

The old typewriter machine

Sorry that the pictures are not as many as usual because I gave the camera to boyfriend and while I was busy running here and there looking at all the diorama or reading the stories, he didn't snap that many pictures inside the buildings (and trust me the buildings are that many, yeah). Nevertheless, it was a very enjoyable Saturday well spent at the museum. I can't wait to visit another one.

Vredeburg Fort, checked!

September 18, 2016

Eat and be merry!

Last August 31st, me and boyfriend went to Lokal to celebrate our first anniversary by having a simple dinner. Why Lokal, you ask? Pretty much because it's the first place where me and boyfriend finally acknowledge that we were heading somewhere, to be something more than just 'friend'. Looking back to the first time I got into university, I quickly collect several unique stories with some boys here. From unrequited love, to instantly being given false hopes by the others. Honestly for me to be in this step is such an amazing achievement. I'm never really good in maintaining a balance social relationship either with friends or lover. Because I ditch people and push them away because I don't know what I want sometimes. And yet here I am celebrating my mini anniversary with someone who has successfully coped up with my madness and all the tantrums I've thrown. I hope I get to celebrate another anniversaries with him in the future. Can't really imagine myself with another man other than with this lump of devilish fat c:

This post will be filled with many food pictures! Scroll at your own risk! :p

Anyway, to bring back the "moment" from that day, we decided to sit at the same table and order the same foods (while trying another one on the menu).

I finally tried the tomato soup and boy was it good... It was sooo damn good! It was a bit rainy when we had dinner there so a warm sour tomato soup was the best option for you to feel better! I can't wait to go back here again on a rainy day and I will definitely order this along with their hot chocolate, yum! *drolls*

 My all time favorite dori fish teriyaki!

One year is not a short time. We went through many fights and disagreements. We even almost had it on the edge that I felt like breaking up with him was the best decision ever. But I couldn't just give up. Like, this is not how I get through the obstacles. Nobody said being in a relationship was easy, and it's definitely not for the weak. So if I want to survive until the D-day where I get to marry this man, I should never give up on him. Not even the slightest chance. Afterall, if we ever broke up, I'd be terribly sad because I wouldn't have any eating or travelling companion anymore!

Bisous chaton! xx