July 22, 2017

500 days of...

I think I know how it feels to be Summer.

When she decided not to settle in a committed relationship with Tom yet she still treated him like he was her boyfriend, it is clear what kind of message the movie is trying to say.

She is used to see people who love each other destroy each other. And when I look around, it's not so different with how things go in real life. Because that happens to me too, sadly. I mean, I have a habit. I destroy the people I love for no reason, mostly because of my own anxiety. And God so help me to remind myself that self love is important before I start any relationship. My anxiety hypnotized me to treat people like they're about to leave me anytime soon. Which results in me pushing them away. I have dealt with this kind of feeling for years now, because people leave me, always. And it's saddening, knowing that I can't do anything about it. I can't see love as a magic word anymore. Like it's losing its meaning the moment I was left by my ex boyfriend for some girl. Whenever a man tries to hit me up, I can't bring myself to be excited or interested in them. It's weird, considering I'm an attention whore. And then I remember Summer Finn. The way she sees love is unique, and very realistic. Maybe that's why people hate her in the movie. Because it's too realistic.

But I know now, how it feels to be Summer.

And I think that's the best thing to feel for now.

July 15, 2017

Hold us together

 Nevada dress, unbranded bag, unbranded shoes

I'm sooo happy to be able to post proper outfit post again! :D It's been 17 billion ages since the last time I actually stood up in front of a wall, dressing up and setting timer on my DSLR and took head-to-toe photos. It feels good to be back on track! I'm still in Bekasi, enjoying every last bit of my soon going to an end holiday :( I'm in my final year now and expected to graduate around June next year omg. Time flies so fast! I can't believe three years ago I had just graduated from high school, doing placement tests etc to get into university, I was so thrilled to start experiencing one of the best phase of my life. And here I am now, trying (not so) hard not to run away from all my responsibilities.

Being in early 20s (I'm 21 now, remember?) means a lot to me. It's becoming a burden now that I still haven't figured out of what I'm going to do with my life later after I graduate. Which probably that's one of the biggest reason why I don't think graduating soon is a good choice. Almost all of my friends have at least one experience of working in the real law industry, and almost all of them too have participated in more than one law competition. Unlike me, who, apparently, gave all of my time just for my art group. I mean I can't lie that even after being a law student, I'm still an artist at heart. I like to perform, I like to create things, and it helps to ease my mind when university life is becoming a pain in the ass. Which happens most of the time :/ If they were to graduate soon, they already had long plan ahead of what they were going to do next. Again, unlike me, who probably will go 180 degree different from the rest of my friends. I keep telling myself that it's totally okay to go the other way where the place is not so crowded. Going different way is good, as long as I'm ready and quick to adapt because now I understand how fast life can be.

Updates on the love department; nothing has come up. I don't know if it's a bad thing or a good thing. It maybe both. My view on the word 'love' has totally changed the moment I read my friend's writings about it. That love is just a chemical reaction. And when I see it not being something that is uncontrollable by me, rather it's something science and of course can be controlled, falling in and out of love seems very ordinary. I don't know what's the fuss is all about and we need to stop making love as an issue although I admit that it's one of the biggest emotion that often drives our artistic part. Because I myself, write poem and other stories based on my view on love. But in real life, it's getting too overrated that I'm getting sick of everyone talking about love and love and love. It only takes one bad, nasty break up to get me traumatized of being in a relationship because everything can go wrong in building a relationship. Despite being madly in love now (and he doesn't even know it yet), I really don't force myself to be with him. Or find a way to make us together. A friend of mine asked me the reason why I don't chase him like a hungry hyena. It's simply because I don't have to date him to tell him that I love him and care for him. Right? If I really loved him, I would let him grow, be there for him when he needed me, cheered for him during his best moments, and be sad over his failures and loss. I have learned to emphasize myself in my own life, to stop giving room for other people to be in charge of my own happiness. And as a friendly note, you should do this too! It will give your life a whole lot better meaning! :)

So before we part, let's talk about this outfit! I used to hate going somewhere in skirts because somehow I feel like it's not liberating me from my excessive movements; like running and jumping around because I love to chase my friends jokingly. And I used to label myself as this tomboy girl who would swallow poison before I put those dresses and skirt on! >:( But as the years gone by, I grow up and explore new style. I fall in and out of fashion trends, and find my own signature style, the style that makes me comfortable and boosts my confidence. Surprisingly enough, dresses and skirts are one of my signature style ensemble! :D Nowadays I feel so nice walking in one, dressed up in one. I guess that's the magic of clothing, when I wear pants, I feel free. When I wear skirts, I feel pretty! It's not something that's better than the other kind of style, just something that now I can go with without that grudge feeling lmao. Also if you haven't really noticed, I'm wearing a super short shorts too and it's visible here. That's why I love this dress so much! It's combining two of a different style. Sadly such clothing can't be worn around campus because who allows their student to show off that much skin anyway???

Here's a little song for you to enjoy before I close the post. WILD - Hold Us Together ;)

Mug talk

If you haven't noticed from my Instagram; yes, I do collect mugs. Just normal, cute mugs with minimalist design and a little typography here and there. My first mug is the one in the middle, that says 'better late than ugly'. I found it funny and true at the same time, and decided to take it home right away. After that, I become more and more interested in buying new mugs everytime I visit ACE Hardware. Sadly, they don't really sell a lot of varieties of mugs :/ I don't know where to hunt down cute mugs here in Bekasi or Jogja so if any of you guys know where to get them, let me know! c:

July 11, 2017

July playlist

So I decided to make this kind of post every time we enter a new month. That would encourage me to make at least new post every month, right? I like discovering new songs or old songs that I just know by now. And I like it even more when I find that a lot of people are actually listening to them too! So here goes my July playlist (in no particular order):

I make new playlist every month to show this off on Spotify. So check out my profile and follow me! Also please don't mind my totally bare face because I wasn't in the mood to put any make-up on since I wasn't going anywhere and yes, ladies and gentlemen, it's totally okay not to put that much effort for a single picture for your blog post lol. But anyway, just take it as my lame excuse to not look decent here. Adios!

June 27, 2017

What's inside my make-up bag?

It's finally here! The long awaited 'what's in my bag' kind-of post! I was gonna do my daily bag at first but realized that now I'm already back at my hometown and I don't really bring my usual bag with me so no for that. Instead, I'll take you guys to take a closer look to my make-up bag! c: Excited? Because I am! Now now, I used to be this girl who paid little to mind about make-up shenanigans because I was too comfortable in my own skin! But ever since I got into university, my whole perspective about make-up changed. Added the fact that I also broke up with my last boyfriend last year, I became more and more serious about make-up to make myself look so much more present for people's eyes. Make-up to me was never about faking my looks. I like women who are so good in make-up and actually know which facial feature needs to be enhanced. Because that means they know how to present themselves to look more decent. I used to be okay going out without any single make-up on my face, but now after I get used to put some on, I can't even go a day without drawing and tending my brows. Make-up routine becomes a fun activity for me, and most us women I guess. Okay so without further ado let's get started!

The make-up bag is pretty big, you can see how big it is compared to my hand in the first photo, which is why I stuff it with a lot of stuffs. I got it as a gift after purchasing a lot of make-up last time, please ignore the missing embossed letters tho (it's supposed to say 'DYN'). I love to have everything with me when I'm away running errands. Because I usually stay out from morning until late night and sometimes to freshen my look I like to change my make-up just to give people a different look. Here are some of the essentials I always have with me:
  1. Mustika Putri compact powder
  2. Purbasari matte lipstick in shade 81, 91, and 93
  3. Wardah BB cream in Light shade
  4. Candy eyeliner
  5. Catrice nail polish in color number 39 Black To The Roufell
  6. Maybelline Color Show eyeliner in number 08 Deep Black
  7. Mizzu waterproof power volume mascara
  8. POND's daily moisturizer for acne solution
  9. Clean&Clear oil control film
  10. Mirror
  11. Comb
  12. Viva eyebrow pencil in black
  13. Eyelashes curler
  14. Sharpener, to sharpen my eyebrow pencil

Before, I used to wear glossy lipstick from Wardah when the whole SMLC from NYX got very popular in the market and around my friends. It was still too pricey for me and as much as I love make-up, I'm still a student and I love budget-friendly make-up stuffs. So when I heard that a local brand called Purbasari released a series of matte lipstick that only costs me thirty thousands rupiahs each, I couldn't help but to get one right away. My first shade is the Diamond, and the other two, Beryl and Opal, they're new, I just got them this early year.

Okay so ignore the lipstick stain because that looks so unhygienic. I usually clean them everytime I'm going to wear it but I always get rushed so yeah... Anyway, the Diamond shade is what I like to use the most on a daily basis because I have dark lips and the color lights it up right away, balancing the dark hues. But I also like to experiment with the other two even for a simple day out with some friends. Opal looks like dark purple and Beryl looks red on my lips. Both of the latter are more suitable for formal events but really, that's the fun thing about make-up, you get to play with whatever colors that make you happy and confident. But I rarely wear Opal just because purple doesn't always go with all colors and I like to coordinate my lipstick with my outfit as well.

So yeah! That's that, it's pretty short right. I really want to make at least one video of how I do my make-up at least on a daily basis, but I realize I'm still missing a lot of things to actually get there. If you guys are wondering about how any of those work, you can always leave a message in the comment box and I'll answer right away! Thank you for reading and have a nice day! xx

June 25, 2017

Salmon pink

Hey hoo! It's me, updating for the fifth time in a month, wow! I gotta say that is one big achievement because as you can see, I barely wrote anything in the previous months. With me being sick and had to undergo another surgery, I couldn't really get my hands on the computer. But thankfully now that I have recovered so much more compared to a week ago, and also because it's Eid Al-fitr, so I can slip into my blog and see what I can write.

I realized that I haven't done any meaningful outfit posts for months. I remember taking pictures with white background without any tripod in my guest house's bedroom but after I moved out from my old guest house, the interior was just not good enough for me to take photos indoor. Especially because my room has somewhat cold and damp vibes since I don't get a lot of sunlight in on a daily basis so I hate having to take photos inside my room. And I have never actually do an outdoor photo session for my outfit posts. I mean I don't know how those bloggers do it but how do they do it??? Do you dress up and then you go to a place and just start taking pictures and then that's it? Uhhh that sounds like you're doing too much just for the sake of an outfit post, no? Maybe the reason why I've never taken outfit photos outdoor is because there aren't many people to help me to take photos. I get it that we all have different aesthetics but sometimes I wish I can double myself so I can at least save more time from giving people 'How To Take Dyn's Photos According To Dyn' guide. But hopefully, just hopefully, I can start doing outdoor photo session because it's gonna be fun to look at, right? Aren't you just bored to see me standing in front of a white wall and pose? But first I will have to look for some friends to shoot with.

Back when I was still in Yogyakarta, I told my mom I wanted to buy a new dress for Eid Al-fitr. I remember seeing my ex's girlfriend in this pretty pink kaftan and I kinda wanted to make a joke out of it by getting one and doing the same pose in the exact same place like her in the photo and posted it online just for fun. But, turns out the style of the kaftan was too outdated so I decided to do a little research and found this wrap dress that is very easy to wear. I still decided to go with pink so I can match with my mom's outfit. I don't know exactly how much this dress costs me and I don't even know where did my mom get it but I will edit this post later to add some details.

It's always nice to be able to celebrate Eid with my family. Some of my friends don't get to celebrate Eid with their loved ones since they're still on KKN. And since I'm not taking KKN this semester, I get to go home and be with my family during Eid. How about you? How do you celebrate Eid? :)

June 21, 2017


Just a small collection of photos that I took a while ago during my work at Lafayette Boutique Hotel in Yogyakarta. I'm so in love with their interior design. The first floor smells like cinnamon and dominated with the color white and black and red. As for the photos above, those are taken at their penthouse where an event was held, a farewell party. I've been taking job offers and help from my friends to snap some pictures in their event. Sometimes I do it for the sake of practice and CV only so no money is charged, but I do appreciate the ones who do pay me haha. Oh well, I decided to post them here because it's not fair to leave them sitting there in my laptop. I also have another portfolio tumblr, if you wanna check them out. Maybe our taste match well and who knows, maybe we can work together in the future? :)

June 16, 2017


This was supposed to be posted few months ago around February or April, right after I finished my mid semester exam. But as always, uni life got me stuck in the middle of nowhere and that's that. So one day around that time, me and my friends decided to go visit Hayati, a new cafe at Demangan while waiting for Rama to finish his Friday pray. I've been wanting to visit Hayati since it's located right next to Popoluca's offline store and it has this industrial interior design. People have been posting about it on Instagram and it has became the 'it' place for hanging out because it does have cozy surrounding and plays really cool playlist. Though I don't really fancy their coffee selection because it's too mainstream and too overrated. The taste is pretty much so-so, doesn't leave any remarkable taste on my tongue and I still prefer Blackbone over Hayati. However, if you happen to shop at Popoluca, you can always pay Hayati a visit to take some Instagram-worthy pictures but maaayyybe not for the coffee? Tell me how it tastes for you guys!

Pictured above are Dio's tea, Rhia's ice chocolate, and my red velvet coffee. As I've told you in the previous paragraph, it's struggling in having an iconic taste that would make you remember Hayati itself. It doesn't really make me craving for more aside from its amazing interior design and many cool photo spots, but the coffee is lacking in the marking department :( Shame because even the choices of the coffee itself is very limited and mainstream. You can find the exact same menu Hayati has at other coffee shop and it would taste just the same. So yeah, once is okay. But the second time here would be very hard to decide.

Rama's shrimp salad - it tastes decent fortunately

Now here comes the rating part! I'm not trying to sugar coat everything nor lying about the coffee here but this is truly coming from the heart okay so I hope anyone who reads this understands that it's okay not to write daisies and ponies and unicorns about a certain place's foods or beverages because why would you even write down something dishonest, right? Though Hayati doesn't leave me speechless with their coffee, they still amazes me with the interior and the playlist. Their outside hang out spot is also nice and looks very pretty, which becomes a bonus if you're planning to do your paper with your friends here. However, I'm down for the coffee because I'm a coffee junkie! So let's split the rating; 8/10 for the interior, but 4/10 for the coffee. Whoops! I hope next time I pay them a visit, they would improve their coffee.
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