Hi people! How's your day? I'm about to start my two weeks holiday before the final exam at collage takes place. Gotta admit that I'm totally nervous because my last failure on midterm exam keeps on haunting my days. I have to work hard this time around so I won't disappoint my parents! Anyway, since that means I have a lot of spare time to spend, yesterday me and a few friends from Sanggar decided to go to the beach again to see the sunrise. It's becoming a tradition you know, randomly driving our way to the beach in the most awkward time. I guess we're just weird like that, haha. But first we hopped off to Eri's house because it was still 10 pm and we didn't want to spend too much time on the beach because our main purpose was to see the sunrise only. There were seven of us, and when we waited at Eri's bedroom, I spotted this cute big teddy bear sitting nicely on his bed's corner! I laughed so hard because I didn't expect Eri to be a type of boy who keeps cute stuffs, especially stuffed animals. But then he said this was supposed to be his ex girlfriend's teddy bear, but when they broke up, she came to him and returned it. Well, her lose. Because now this beautiful and puffy teddy belongs to me! Eri wholeheartedly gave it to me because he said there's no point for him for keeping the doll in his room. And I was so happy because I don't really have any stuffed animals to be hugged when I sleep. And this is the biggest doll I have ever had. So so happy!
Can you see how happy my face is when she's around? ;D I'm still thinking about which name I should give to her. It feels great to have a stuffed animal waiting for you to get home from college. You can even hug it whenever you feel down or sad. At least when Oscar is not around to make me feel better, I have her now! ;p Thank you so much, Eri! You're the best bro ever!
Unbranded batik dress and skirt | ELIZABETH shoes
I'm currently running out of words because I'm catching up with a lot of things right now. But I still want to let you know that I'm still alive. Year end is coming and I feel both excited and worried. Because of many things, of course. Oh well, this photo was taken when dad took me to attend his business colleague's wedding and being the good daughter that I am, I went along.
To everyone who has been with me through the years, must have known that I have never been tied down into a relationship before. Being single for 18 years doesn't really make me blind about it though. I mean, I know about all the basic stuff of being a girlfriend, about how to be a good one. But when I'm faced with a personality I can't really handle, I become frustrated and confused myself. I keep on searching and asking to my friends about my love life and while it sounds a bit funny, none of the advice I get can actually works on my condition. Tell me, if your boyfriend gets stressed because of his work and he gets grumpy all the time even when you're around, what would you do? Because I don't know what should I do except being there to show him my support :( But I keep saying to myself that it's not enough. I feel bad because I can't bring that smile on his face when I'm around...
Unbranded top and skirt, Elizabeth shoes
I bought this top from my senior on campus and this cool stuff arrived today. Her mother runs an online shop and the sweet thing about having someone who kinda has a connection to an online shop owner is that you don't really have to pay for the shipping of your goods! I just have to see her on campus and pay the original price~ Anyway, yay for double update this week! *cheers* It's becoming very rare for me to update the blog this much because college life has always been a whee and I can't really take proper outfit photos or have anything much to talk about on the blog. I go to tumblr most of the time because not many of my friends see it and I can write anything I feel like it there. It's like my sappy diary, huhu.
So that's the update for now. Talk to you soon! xx
Since I don't regularly update my blog again (because tumblr has been such a dear to me) (blogging becomes really easy there!), I guess I'm gonna make today's post a little bit long. Just a little sum up of my current life. So how do I get start? College life has been a little bit ruined with mid-term exams because the result is starting to be published and let's just say I didn't pass at one subject. It was a godamn important subject most of all and I didn't pass. I admit it, I didn't study hard during mid-term and hung out with my friends instead. But I'm not one who keeps dwelling over my failure for too long. There's still final exam next December and I'll make sure that this time the same failure won't get me.
As for my current life in Sanggar; I'm in the middle of a very busy week. Lots and lots of projects are coming my way and I need to stay focus because honestly it's quite hard for me to keep up on two things all at once. I mean both college and my activities at Sanggar. Sometimes I wonder why my parents didn't let me to get into an art school because studying law isn't really my biggest passion. I still want to study at the other faculty, FIB for example. Fakultas Ilmu Budaya totally has my name all over it and would I be accepted at FIB this year, everything wouldn't be too hard, would it? I mean, I love studying about culture and language, aside from performing arts. And surely, exams wouldn't take too much of my energy because I know I love what I'm studying. But oh well, this is my life now and if I want to survive, I gotta deal with it.
Also, today marks my first month anniversary with my boyfriend! Yaaaayyyy! Like, finally oh my lords I finally have a boyfriend! I'd like to tell you how we first met because this kind of relationship is really messy and funny and all but I've written down everything I remember on my tumblr so maybe you want to jump over there and browse over the tag 'love' :) He's not technically my boyfriend because we don't share any status together, but everyone sees us as a couple and they start calling me as his girlfriend, and vice versa. Well, wouldn't mind that calling anyway, ha! I'm still learning how to be the good girlfriend before we get more serious and since this is my first relationship, somehow everything seems so exciting! I'm a little bit afraid, honestly, because I'm the type of person who always loves more in a relationship. I'm still not ready yet if one day I have to end this with him. But please wish me luck for everything >,< I just don't wanna lose him!
Friend's top, Nevada pants, Gowigasa bag, Airwalk shoes
The top isn't rightfully mine. It belongs to my friend, Rhia. I borrowed it the other day and forgot to return it until today. It's a crop top and she rarely wears it to the campus so I told her I would wear that beautiful shit. But after she gave it to me, I found it hard to find the perfect match to go with it. Today, though, I decided to just pair it with my black pants because I was having my lazy days to dress up. I might take a note not to wear this crop top before I flatten my belly because dude I'm fat and round like a ball, the belly keeps peeking out of the top! I totally need to work out and lose some weight because I guess I'm overweighted lmao. A little bit jogging won't hurt, hmn. Gotta lose those fats around thighs and arms orrrzzzz.
I guess that's all! Will come back to you guys again, hopefully with a more inspiring post. Ciao! xx
Wow I can't believe it's been a month since we started going out together. It's still fresh in my mind of how exactly a month ago we suddenly went to the beach because Rihma asked for it, and it was around 10 pm. I was having dilemma whether I wanted to go along or just went home to the guest house, and if you didn't somehow put your ride in college, I 87% believe we wouldn't be here right now as a couple.
You can say four hours is such a quick time for us to bond, maybe too quick for any other couple out there. But maybe that's because we were so broken and lonely at that time so we needed someone to accompany our lonely souls and shattered hearts. That's why we could bond in such short time. I thought whatever happened between us on the beach would end once we reached back the town, but then we continued taking care of each other and it keeps going even until now, right at this moment. And honestly, from the deepest of my heart, I never regret it. I'm glad because I got to know you, I didn't regret tagging along to the beach and didn't sleep until the morning came, I'm happy because in the end, I could finally move on from my previous crush.
Eventhough it seems like we're currently having so many issues right now—starting from our messy and tangled communication, I become more sensitive and cry often when it comes to you, the topic about our different religion, and so on—but I can promise you that I will walk down the road without any regrets and burden. I want us to last, even if it sounds so impossible for us. But a girl can dream, right? So just leave me be.
Happy first month anniversary ({})
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