Unbranded top, Gesale skirt, ICONinety9 shoes, Buddy Books note
I just got back from having another meeting with the staffs for the orientation days today. And oh how I miss being busy again. I just wish that I can work with the people I know because most of them are new friends. I've been spending my time alone. Like eating alone, jogging alone, shopping alone... My friends haven't come back from their hometown and they'll be here on 13th August so it's still a long way to go until we're reunited. But I'll be busy with some preparations for the orientation days as well so I hope I don't have to feel lonely!
Lately I've been looking different, my mom says. For those of you who happen to be following me on Snapchat and Instagram, well, I've been doing some massive changing on my lifestyle. Why, why now, why all of a sudden? It all begins when I realized my period was late. No, I'm not pregnant. I'm on my period now but I missed my period on July. I didn't have my July period so I went through the entire month without having any period. I told my mom about it and she suspected me if I ever had sex with anyone. Mom, seriously... And then I came up to my friend and he told me maybe it was my hormone. Yes, I asked a boy about late period. He then suggested me to take some drugs and drink a traditional drink to bring back my routine period. And I did what he said. Now I can have my period back. But afterwards, I think about what he told me about my hormone. All this time, for the last six months living far away from my friends, I had a very terrible lifestyle. I consume too much bottled drinks, oily foods, I rarely do sports, I sleep all the time thus my body doesn't have the time to burn all those fats, and I almost never ate vegetables or fruits. During that time, I could actually feel my body becoming weaker and weaker each day. I only took some vitamin C to keep my metabolism maintained but I knew it wouldn't be enough.
And after the accident, where I skipped July's period, I realized it's time to change my lifestyle.
I have always wanted to start a healthy life. I just didn't know how to start or what to do. But I've promised to myself this time that I will set myself a schedule and I will try my best to follow my own schedule. I talked to my doctor at first and he set out a few options about what I should and shouldn't do because I have a very weak heart and lungs so I better don't push myself too hard on this. I started everything by choosing carefully of what I eat. Less carbo, more vegetables and fruits. I was never a fan of eating rice, since rice is the number one source of carbo, I have no problem getting rid of it from my eating list. So I try to eat rice only once a day or even more, not at all. But that's pretty hard to do because most of the Indonesian foods here are always served with rice. I also make a schedule on when to eat. I don't eat anything at night anymore, not even a tiny bit of snacks. I only eat fruits and salad and drink more water every night to keep my tummy full. I postpone my breakfast and lunch so I have shorter time to feel hungry. I can now eat only once a day, with fruits and water as my "snack". The doctor says my body will feel a little bit weird and I will experience some nausea because of the changing food supply but it can be balanced by doing sports to keep my stamina. So I tried to set out my own schedule for jogging and doing some minor sports (like push ups, sit ups, and squats). I even use an app to keep track of my calories (ever heard about Nike+ app?) (yeah that actually helps me a lot).
I've been doing this for a while now, and I don't know... I feel so content and happier.
I'm so proud of myself because I can actually start doing a diet program. All this time I thought it would be impossible for me to do that especially because I live far away from my parents now and no one will pay attention on what I eat and what I do. But turns out I finally did it! And I can see the change right before my eyes. It's my third day doing sit ups, push ups, and squats. And my stomach has loosen 3 cm. I mean, it's real. And I wish I did this earlier. Not just it makes me healthier, it also shapes my body. Because honestly, I feel like I'm overweight, you know. Like, I'm supposed to be 18 kilos lighter than I am now. It's the ideal weight for someone as petite as I am, ha! So yeah, it's like killing two birds with one stone.
Okay, okay, enough about that. So, here's the outfit that I wore the other day, you might have seen me wearing the top on my Instagram. I got it in during my return to Bekasi. I told you there's this one mall where I can get basically anything I've been looking for. Yep, I got this top the same place where I bought my kimono vest. I wore it again today to the meeting and it was quite hot today so I sweat a lot in this top. I then exchanged my pants with the skirt (that you've seen me wearing for many times in this blog) and the shoes because I'm sure I bore you guys with the same fucking shoes everytime I post outfit posts. Well, when you love one particular shoes you just keep wearing them all the time! But this time it's different. I opted for my houndstooth flats that I got from ICONinety9, another favorite store of mine where I got most of my shoes here.
A late birthday gift from my high school friends!
Black is my happy colour
So, yeah! I guess that's all for today. I'm so happy to be back on blogging again. I'm happy to be back on my routine taking outfit photos for the blog and editing them afterwards. I wonder if any of you guys made some big changes recently that actually affects your life? I'm looking forward to hear from you guys! 'Til then, have a nice day! xo
As a girl whose parents come from a beautiful city like Yogyakarta, I must say I'm one very lucky child. I mean, this city has the most perfect holiday destination from mountains to temples. There are some of my friends who are not accustomed to living in Java, especially in Yogyakarta (most of them come from outside the island itself). But I'm blessed enough because my parents were born in this city and the majority of my family members come from here as well. So I've grown really close with Yogyakarta since I was still a baby. My family went back and forth from Jakarta every eid to gather with our family. And every visit will reveal yet another new places. Just like this one; Taman Buah Mangunan. It's located far from the heart of the city and I can't tell you exactly how to get here because I don't know how (I'm bad at directions, remember?) and it's really high you technically have to drive up to get to the "balcony". My father was hesitate whether to climb up using our car or not because it was very steep (like, straight 90 degree). But since we knew it would be worth it, we finally did it. And boy it was. The view was sooo beautiful, amazing! I even had goosebumps when I finally reached the place. I quickly fell in love with the view.
Indonesia is currently on the edge of dry season, but it's still getting worse. Drought everywhere, even here in Tamab Buah Mangunan, you can see how dry the land is. The color of the land is very bright and the trees look pale as if lacking of water supply. I wish this drought will soon come to an end. It must be really beautiful to visit this place in its healthiest state. Also, I suggest you to wear pants or jeans instead of skirts, especially the short ones, like I wore that day. Why? Because you'll be taking a lot of stairs and believe me you don't want to catch attention on some wandering eyes, do you? I didn't know the place would be like this. I opted for short skirt because it made me easier to walk around. But the wind was quite strong so I had to be careful not to blow my skirt away lmao.
The view was terrifying, and I swear, you guys have to make a visit on Taman Buah Mangunan. Put it in your wishlist because it's worth it. You'll love the place, the view, you can take many photos and post it on Instagram and make your friends jealous! So, what are you waiting for? ;)
Photos are taken using my phone.
Unbranded kimono vest, H&M black tank, Dust jeans, Viola shoes
Before I go blabbering words into this post, let me say it first; Happy Ied Al-fitr everyone! I know it's way too late because it's been two weeks since the celebration but hey, better late than never, right? Anyway, I don't know how many times I keep using the chance in every beginning of every post I write to apologize first because I keep neglecting the blog. Well, I always come up with good excuses fortunately, teehee. If you befriend me on LINE, some weeks ago I posted a status saying that I was going back and forth between Jogja and Bekasi. I don't even count anymore. The first week of celebrating eid, I went to many places with my family and I stayed in my own home, not the guest house. And there was no internet connection there so even though I brought my laptop with me, I couldn't update anything. And then after eid, I went back to Bekasi with my family. This time I left all my gadgets back in the guest house because I was going to spend just another one week so why bother bringing them all? Thus even though I got wifi but since I didn't bring my laptop with me, I couldn't update the blog. But now that I'm finally back (again, for the umpteenth time) in my lovely guest house, I can do more updates, yay! College will start again on 24th August but I just had to get back here early because I become one of the staffs for the orientation days for freshmen. I don't really like long holidays because I don't know what to do.
This is the outfit that I wore on D-day. I've been looking for that kimono vest for a very long time, you can't imagine. I've searched the entire online shops on Instgram but I don't know... I'm just too lazy to do online shopping again. I was so happy when I suddenly found it when I went home to Bekasi. Seriously guys there's this mall where I can find just anything I want. Most of the clothes in my wardrobe are bought in this mall. I was planning to buy more kimono with different patterns of flowers and colours. I am so in love with it.
Another version on how I rock the kimono - photo taken at IKEA Indonesia
Have you ever thought the life you're living right now isn't the life that you've always wanted?
Or, or have you ever felt like you're taking the wrong steps in your life?
Because I am feeling it right now. I feel like I didn't make the right choice. I don't like making choices. I think too much when I have to choose about what I'm going to do in my life. I'm never ready with the consequences that follow. You know, I have always known as one of the brightest student in high school. I made lots of achievements inside and outside the school. I have the coolest friends because they have the brightest academic records. The teachers know me and are very supportive with me because I have always been the good student. I had some subjects that I used to hate, but still had to get good score at it because school was like that. Otherwise my parents would ban me from doing extracurricular activity or spazzing over Korean boybands or going to concerts and even doing my hobbies, like writing and drawing comics. So I had to get good score on the least subject I liked. The thing is, I did great. Even though I hated the process because I didn't like the subject, I still managed to go through it all because I simply had to.
Fast forward to one year later, I'm in university now, living my life as law-majored student. And turns out there are just so many things I don't like here. I mean the subject I'm studying. Then why did I choose law as my major? I wanted to see if I could make my childhood dream came true. Because of this dream of studying law, my life has always been in control. The steps I took all the way before university, all of them were only so I could get into this major. Of course I have a plan once I graduate; to be an ambassador. But I grow up and find that my passion truly revolves around art. I love being a performer. I love dancing, I love playing theater, I love working with artsy people. My life in college is far from the typical law school student. I can't even see myself being one of those students who come up to join the debate competition held each year. Years ago, maybe I could. But now? I feel like I'm an outcast.
I'm having a hard time studying something that I just realized I had so little passion on. I can't turn back time and applying to another university is out of my choice because I ain't gonna spend another year becoming a freshman. Not when I have parents who demand me to quickly finish my education so I can get a decent job. So the only choice left is to cope up with all this mess I've pulled myself in and graduate as fast as I can. Still, I can't seem to find the right studying method. My grades aren't amazing. And most of the time I get Cs on every subjects. Bs if I worked myself harder and with the help of luck, A. But that's very rare. Whoever says studying law in Indonesia is an easy thing, pretty sure they don't know what it feels like to be one.
I am so tired of picturing how different my life would be if I took a different path.
Would it be beautiful?
Would I be happy?
Maybe it's just me or it happens to you guys as well, but I have loved reading biographies of famous people in the form of a comic book. Einstein, H. C. Andersen, Edison, Isaac Newton, you name it! So when movies like The Imitation Game suddenly appeared in the cinemas, I wouldn't think twice to watch it. Sadly, when it first appeared, I was so busy with college and had no time to go to the cinema. Only few days ago when I stayed over at Eri's house I watched this movie and honestly saying... it made me go so emotional. I can't stop frowning through the film. And when I told you I went so emotional, believe me I did. I cried hard until the end of the movie. Maybe it's the music. But one thing for sure I cry over the fact that Alan Turing took his own life at such young age because he couldn't stand the hormonal therapy given by the government. Such loss could have been prevented if homosexual weren't considered a criminal. Even though now UK has legalized gay marriage since 2013 and has granted royal pardon to Turing, I might as well agree to what Benedict has to say about it; it's too little too late. Imagine if Turing didn't commit suicide, things would have been a little bit different I believe.
I always have a thing for English movies because just like any other people out there, I fall in love with their accent. Though there are times I don't understand what they're saying in the movies and that I still need subtitles (in English, of course) to fully understand the movie, but I have learned to listen carefully and enjoy the movie better. So you can tell how excited I am when I know the setting in this movie took place in England. I totally hypnotized by Benedict Cumberbatch's acting. He can pull off the image of Alan Turing really well. In the end of the movie, he makes me cry a river when he says he doesn't want to be lonely and that he prefers to take the hormonal therapy than be imprisoned for two years and be separated from Christopher, the machine he made to break Enigma's code. I'm so glad this movie doesn't turn its objectives into a romance movie. It sticks to its original plot.
I never get bored re-watching this movie over and over again. Definitely 9.5/10.
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